when I look back now

at the abuse I took from

her

I feel shame that I was so

innocent,

but I must say

she did match me drink for

drink,

and I realized that her life

her feelings for things

had been ruined

along the way

and that I was no mare than a

temporary

companion;

she was ten years older

and mortally hurt by the past

and the present;

she treated me badly:

desertion, other

men;

she brought me immense

pain,

continually;

she lied, stole;

there was desertion,

other men,

yet we had our moments; and

our little soap opera ended

with her in a coma

in the hospital,

and I sat at her bed

for hours

talking to her,

and then she opened her eyes

and saw me:

“I knew it would be you,”

she said.

then hse closed her

eyes.

the next day she was

dead.

I drank alone

for two years

after that.

Analysis, meaning and summary of Charles Bukowski's poem My First Affair With That Older Woman

1 Comment

  1. Anais Frazier says:

    This poem is by Charles Bukowski… although I am encouraged that someone has the great sense of humor required to attribute it to The Amherst Virgin. Thanks for the giggle.

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