A thousand doors ago
when I was a lonely kid
in a big house with four
garages and it was summer
as long as I could remember,
I lay on the lawn at night,
clover wrinkling over me,
the wise stars bedding over me,
my mother's window a funnel
of yellow heat running out,
my father's window, half shut,
an eye where sleepers pass,
and the boards of the house
were smooth and white as wax
and probably a million leaves
sailed on their strange stalks
as the crickets ticked together
and I, in my brand new body,
which was not a woman's yet,
told the stars my questions
and thought God could really see
the heat and the painted light,
elbows, knees, dreams, goodnight.
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Analysis
Young: analysis
Introduction
"Young" is a short memory poem, told in a single sentence. An adult speaker looks back to summer nights in childhood, lying alone on the lawn of a big house. Around her are clover, stars, crickets and the lit windows of her parents' rooms.
The poem catches a moment on the edge of growing up. The speaker's body is "brand new" and "not a woman's yet". She tells the stars her questions and believes God can see her. The word "thought" and the distance of "A thousand doors ago" hint that this belief and this innocence now lie in the past.
Summary
The speaker begins with "A thousand doors ago", a long time back. She was "a lonely kid" in a big house with four garages. In her memory it was summer for as long as she could remember, one endless season.
She lay on the lawn at night. Clover wrinkled over her and "the wise stars" bedded over her. Her mother's window was "a funnel / of yellow heat running out". Her father's window was half shut, "an eye where sleepers pass".
The boards of the house were "smooth and white as wax". Probably a million leaves "sailed on their strange stalks". The crickets "ticked together" in the dark around the house and lawn.
The speaker was in her "brand new body", which was "not a woman's yet". She told the stars her questions. She thought God could really see "the heat and the painted light". The poem ends with a list: "elbows, knees, dreams, goodnight."
Themes and meaning
Memory and distance. The poem opens with "A thousand doors ago". Time is measured in doors passed through, which suggests many changes since. The details are vivid, yet "probably" admits the adult cannot be sure. The whole scene is seen from far away.
Loneliness. The speaker calls herself "a lonely kid" in "a big house". Wealth is hinted at in the "four / garages". It does not bring company. She lies outside alone, and her companions are clover, stars and crickets.
Parents at a distance. The parents appear only as windows. The mother's window pours out "yellow heat", which can be read as warmth, or as something out of reach. The father's is "half shut", "an eye where sleepers pass". Read this way, the child sees her parents only from outside, through lit glass.
On the edge of womanhood. The speaker's body is "brand new" and "not a woman's yet". The word "yet" points to change about to come. The final list, "elbows, knees", is a child's body, all joints. The poem holds the last moment before that change.
Childhood faith. The child "told the stars my questions" and "thought God could really see". The past tense "thought" can be read as quiet loss of that belief. The word "really" keeps the child's earnestness. The poem honours the faith without claiming it still holds.
Tone
The tone is nostalgic, tender and dreamy. The long single sentence drifts from image to image like a memory surfacing. Soft sounds and night images keep the mood calm.
There is a note of loneliness under the calm. The phrase "a lonely kid" is stated plainly. The parents' windows are described with more distance than warmth.
The adult voice adds a light, knowing edge. "A thousand doors ago" and "probably a million leaves" sound fond and wry. The line "thought God could really see" carries a hint of lost belief. The ending is gentle, as the list closes on "goodnight".
Form and structure
"Young" is 1 stanza of 23 lines. It is a single sentence, with only one full stop, at the end. The lines are short, from 5 to 8 syllables. Most carry three stresses in a loose, unmeasured rhythm.
There is no rhyme scheme. A few sounds return. Line 7 and line 8 both end "over me", echoed later by "see". The last three rhyme words, night, light and goodnight, frame the scene and chime at the close.
The sentence is built with "and" and with commas, adding one image after another. This gives the effect of a child's breathless telling, or of memory running on. The full stop arrives only with "goodnight", as sleep does.
Poetic devices
Metaphor line 1
A thousand doors ago Time is measured in doors passed through. It suggests many rooms, stages and changes between then and now.
Personification line 8
the wise stars bedding over me The stars are wise and settle over the child like bedclothes. Nature becomes a watchful, comforting presence.
Epistrophe line 8
over me Line 7 and line 8 both end with the same words. The repetition wraps the child in layers of clover and sky.
Metaphor line 9
my mother's window a funnel The lit window pours heat and light outward. The image suggests warmth, though it flows away from the child outside.
Metaphor line 12
an eye where sleepers pass The half-shut window is a drowsy eye. The father's room seems closed and inward-looking.
Simile line 14
smooth and white as wax The house boards look pale and soft in the dark. Wax suggests something smooth, but also something that can melt.
Onomatopoeia line 17
as the crickets ticked together The verb "ticked" imitates the crickets' sound and also a clock. It hints at time passing even in the endless summer.
Polysyndeton line 15
and probably a million leaves The chain of "and" clauses keeps the sentence running. It mimics memory adding detail after detail.
Asyndeton line 23
elbows, knees, dreams, goodnight. The final list runs without joining words. Body parts, dreams and a farewell blur together as sleep comes.
Imagery line 18
in my brand new body The body is new like a fresh purchase. It stresses how unfamiliar and changing the child's body is.
Words worth knowing
clover
A low-growing plant with three-part leaves, common in lawns.
funnel
A cone-shaped channel. Here the window's light spreads outward from it like a cone.
bedding
Settling down as if going to bed. The stars seem to lie over the child like covers.
stalks
The thin stems that hold leaves.
Context
Anne Sexton lived from 1928 to 1974. The archive's records place the poem in All My Pretty Ones, published in 1962. It has been on americanpoems.com since February 2003. It was Poem of the Day on December 23, 2008. Readers left 27 comments on it between 2004 and 2009.
What readers have said
mary reads the two windows as the speaker's feelings about her parents. The mother's is described with warmth, while the father's is "half shut". mary, 2005
Jenifer notes that the poem is spoken in one breath, with no full stops or stanza breaks, like the one quick breath of being young. Jenifer, 2005
James did not like the poem, finding it overly sentimental, dependent on nostalgia, and silent about the realities most people face. James, 2005
mbmanray finds it lovely, and says youth becomes precious only after it has become a memory. mbmanray, 2005
Cecilia reads a child who could trust only nature, turning to it as she should have been able to turn to her parents. Cecilia, 2006
M says the speaker is still a child, but past seeing her parents through rose-coloured glasses. That, for M, is why she tells her dreams goodnight. M, 2009
I think that this poem symbolizes a young woman growing up and watching the changes that were taking place. Her parents also died when she was young, so she was also dealing with that. Jer questions were left up to God, as the memory of summer surrounded her.
MadaishiahUnited States
I really enjoyed this poem but i didnt quite get it. If her parents died when she was young why is there light coming from her mothers and fathers room?
AmyUnited States
What does the funnel of yellow heat running out mean?
This poem helped me understand myself. The first time I read it was the other day in class, I thought it was going to be just another stupid poem, but it really spoke to me. Although my interpretation may be different from other people's, it still works. Anne Sexton is now one of my favorite poets.
mary
I could be entirely wrong, but I always saw the "yellow funnel of light" that she speaks of to be symbolic of her relationship with her mother. There are two windows: her mother's and her father's. She describes her mother's window with warmth, and then in the following two lines she writes that her father's was "half shut,an eye where sleepers pass". Her descriptions of the windows reflect her feelings toward her parents. I hope that this helped!
ps- this poem has been one of my favorites for a long time, and with the onset of summer, "I Remember" is a fun one too :).
i thought this peom really blew b/c i have no idea what it means and i have to write a friggen paper on it describing it w/ 1)to kill a mockingbird 2)ethan frome 3)the crucible 4)of mice and men. I have to do the paper describing two of the books.
mbmanrayUnited States
This is one of the loveliest poems ever writen. Our youth becomes preciouse only after it has become just a memory. Time flies. It's so much in our memories that allow us to keep our lives filled with beauty and meaning. I'm with her, this young girl, lying on the grass at dusk. I feel her words as though it were my own memory from youth. Reading this poem is like returning to my youth on the breath of a daydream on the crest of a cool summer breeze. Ann Sexton, I never knew you, but I loved you. I carry this poem in my wallet. M
JamesAustralia
I didn't like this poem. While it is asthetically pleasing i thought that there were several important issues with it. Firstly its overly sentimental and depends heavily for its affect on the tugging of heart strings and middle america nostalgia. Secondly its themes are alittle hackneyed and thirdly its just a slice of americana with nothing to say about many of the realities of life faced by most real people in the real world.
JeniferUnited States
Notice, this poem is spoken in one breath with no periods or spaces between stanzas. One breath. Like that one quick breath of being young. You inhale, you exhale, and its over. Think about it.
JoshuaUnited States
well all you love out their listen to this. here I go It seem like every thing is change when some one walk in the room. you pass me, by I had to take a look from the side. then you caugth me with those sexy eyes. I to say some thing to you. all night, I won't show you around my town. give me your number so we can talk. she said why so we can get little more person. I talk her at 7:00 p.m. we talk all night. then I…
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well all you love out their listen to this. here I go
It seem like every thing is change when some one walk in the room. you pass me, by I had to take a look from the side. then you caugth me with those sexy eyes. I to say some thing to you. all night, I won't show you around my town. give me your number so we can talk. she said why so we can get little more person. I talk her at 7:00 p.m. we talk all night. then I set a date for tomorrow at a place nice.then I pick her up and her brilliant color blind my eyes and I had to just stop then look at you again wondering how did I meet beautiful girl like you one who bring fun in to my life the I can trust to love me right she have a way of show love in a lot of place it seem like she passion about me because she just won't stop talking about me when she only a few hours from me can't do thing right. It the same way with me. I can't go with out her it no long a problem when she can't stop love me. it seem like the whole night that we talk about each other but the night had to end. I said bye and she got out the car, call you tomorrow bye
trishaCanada
I agree and think that she is relating the poem to her childhood.It is siad that she always felt that her parents never wanted her. They also died of disease when she was young. I think that the poem relates to her relationship with her parents when she was young.
nccCanada
This is what the meaning of this poem is I believe A thousand doors ago-so like before she had opened a thousand doors, a long time ago- when i was a lonely kid- and only child- in a bighouse with four garages and it was summer as long as I rmember- so she was rich and it seemed like the perfect home from the ooutside- I lay on the lawn at night clovers wrinkling under me- she is outside at night- my mother's window…
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This is what the meaning of this poem is I believe A thousand doors ago-so like before she had opened a thousand doors, a long time ago- when i was a lonely kid- and only child- in a bighouse with four garages and it was summer as long as I rmember- so she was rich and it seemed like the perfect home from the ooutside- I lay on the lawn at night clovers wrinkling under me- she is outside at night- my mother's window a funnel of yellow heat running out- so in the dark when there is a light on, you can see the rays coming out of the window, and im guessing it means that hers and her mothers relationship was a storng one- my fathers window, half shut an eye where sleepers pass- so he's already alsleep, and im guessing her parents dont sleep in the same room, he father stays a mistery to her- and the boards of the house were smooth and white as wax- just the moon light on the house peaceful- and probabley a million leaves sailed by on their starange stalks- uhm this is one i never understood much, but i think its talking about her friends- as the crickets ticked together- so peaceful night- and I in my brand new body, which was not yet a womens- so she young like 12 or 13- told my questions to the stars- so i guess she is like praying :S- and thought god could really see the heat and painted light- so i guess believeing that even god could see though her family perfect family portrate- elbows, knees, dreams, goodnight- so im guessing falling asleep-
well i had a lot of trouble with that poem and if i got it wrong polease correct me, but i know that if there had have been an explanation like this ofr the poem, i would have kissed the persons feet, so your welcome and please correct what ever i missunderstood
This poem is a wonderful piece of reflective art that has universal appeal. How can those of us who had a less than perfect childhood, fail to empathise with this poem. In the poem Sexton shows how her trust, reliance and support in those days could only be within nature. She turns to nature in this poem in the way that she should have been able to turn to her parents. It is very well-written with an indirect theme : childhood/adolescent instability.
JessicaUnited States
Lines- explanation 1. many years ago 2. her parents had died, she was lonely 3-4. the girl was wealthy but lonely without her parents to love her 5-7. she had always laid outside at night watching the sky on top of the ground and grass 8. stars all around her 9-10. the lack of light in her mothers room tells that her mother’s death caused their strong relationship to become weak 11. the window to the bedroom was…
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Lines- explanation 1. many years ago 2. her parents had died, she was lonely 3-4. the girl was wealthy but lonely without her parents to love her 5-7. she had always laid outside at night watching the sky on top of the ground and grass 8. stars all around her 9-10. the lack of light in her mothers room tells that her mother’s death caused their strong relationship to become weak 11. the window to the bedroom was half shut resembling an eye 12. nobody slept in the bedroom after her parents had passed 13-14. the boards of the house were bright white 15-16. the leaves on the trees swayed representing calmness 17. the crickets chirping together was the only sound in the night 18-19. she is maturing and growing up by herself without anyone to raise her 20. she laid beneath the stars and prayed 21-22. she thought God was taking care of her parents in Heaven 21&23. she thought God was watching out for her and listening to her prayers before she went to bed
with all of my research i believe that to be correct but there is always room for opinion
harleyAlgeria
that its about her first time masterbateing
anitaUnited States
I think this poem was written when the girl was grown up, she is remembering her summer.At this time the girl is not quite a woman but is no longer a child. She is rich and probably the only child b/c she said a lonely kid in a big house. The light coming out of her mother's window symbolizes a warm relationship, however the half shut window symbolizes a mystery that her father is to her. And "an eye where sleeper pass" that her father keeps to himself. Thoough she has a warm relationship with her mother, she does not trust her b/c her question and thought are expressed to the stars. Hope this is right b/c i have to interpret it next class.
I think this npoem was written about a girl whe she is all grown up an she is at her parents house remembering all when she was a little girl when she layed in her lawn watching the stars and whatching in her parents window
AlishaUnited States
I think that this poem was written by a women that was thinking back to when she was young...and she wrote about her thoughts while she lay on the ground...
Antonio Moore
I liked this one it gave me a sense of safety and it put an image of God and the starsin my head. It was great.
Sharaina TroopUnited States
The poem has to do with her becoming a young women and finding her sensuality- i think..........
KaitlynUnited States
I liked the it alot,I think it was about her growing up and what the day was like and how she didn't feel like a woman yet but she was almost there and about her summer growing up
Billally BopkinsBelarus
Ga BEST beset poem ever
BrookeGreece
The speaker was a girl, probably in her mid-teenage years in this poem, and she is now recalling her summers as a little girl. She has not fully reached the stage of womanhood yet, but she has come to the realization that she is no longer a child. She is apparently very wealthy and probably the only child because she said she was “a lonely kid in a big house.” The light coming out of her mother's window represents…
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The speaker was a girl, probably in her mid-teenage years in this poem, and she is now recalling her summers as a little girl. She has not fully reached the stage of womanhood yet, but she has come to the realization that she is no longer a child. She is apparently very wealthy and probably the only child because she said she was “a lonely kid in a big house.” The light coming out of her mother's window represents her having a warm relationship with her parents, however the half-shut window symbolizes the mystery that her father is in her eyes. And "an eye where sleeper pass" shows that while she does love her father he is a man that often prefers to keep to himself. Though she has a warm relationship with her mother, she does not trust her, which is seen when taking into consideration that her question and thought seem to be confessed only to the stars. The point that the speaker looks as though she is trying to get across is that even though we may feel completely alone at time as we face the many stages and struggles in our lives, we are never truly alone, because we will always have the stars and God to listen to us.
She is still a child in this poem. She is purposfully obscuring the details of her relationship to her parents, but essentially realizing she is not quite an adult, but is past seeing her parents through rose-coloured glasses. That's why she tells her dreams goodnight.
It is such a nice and beautiful poem.
i read this poem in class and i like it a lot
I really wish someone could explain it!
I think that this poem symbolizes a young woman growing up and watching the changes that were taking place. Her parents also died when she was young, so she was also dealing with that. Jer questions were left up to God, as the memory of summer surrounded her.
I really enjoyed this poem but i didnt quite get it. If her parents died when she was young why is there light coming from her mothers and fathers room?
What does the funnel of yellow heat running out mean?
This poem helped me understand myself. The first time I read it was the other day in class, I thought it was going to be just another stupid poem, but it really spoke to me. Although my interpretation may be different from other people's, it still works. Anne Sexton is now one of my favorite poets.
I could be entirely wrong, but I always saw the "yellow funnel of light" that she speaks of to be symbolic of her relationship with her mother. There are two windows: her mother's and her father's. She describes her mother's window with warmth, and then in the following two lines she writes that her father's was "half shut,an eye where sleepers pass". Her descriptions of the windows reflect her feelings toward her parents. I hope that this helped!
ps- this poem has been one of my favorites for a long time, and with the onset of summer, "I Remember" is a fun one too :).
i thought this peom really blew b/c i have no idea what it means and i have to write a friggen paper on it describing it w/ 1)to kill a mockingbird 2)ethan frome 3)the crucible 4)of mice and men. I have to do the paper describing two of the books.
This is one of the loveliest poems ever writen. Our youth becomes preciouse only after it has become just a memory. Time flies. It's so much in our memories that allow us to keep our lives filled with beauty and meaning. I'm with her, this young girl, lying on the grass at dusk. I feel her words as though it were my own memory from youth. Reading this poem is like returning to my youth on the breath of a daydream on the crest of a cool summer breeze. Ann Sexton, I never knew you, but I loved you. I carry this poem in my wallet. M
I didn't like this poem. While it is asthetically pleasing i thought that there were several important issues with it. Firstly its overly sentimental and depends heavily for its affect on the tugging of heart strings and middle america nostalgia. Secondly its themes are alittle hackneyed and thirdly its just a slice of americana with nothing to say about many of the realities of life faced by most real people in the real world.
Notice, this poem is spoken in one breath with no periods or spaces between stanzas. One breath. Like that one quick breath of being young. You inhale, you exhale, and its over. Think about it.
well all you love out their listen to this. here I go It seem like every thing is change when some one walk in the room. you pass me, by I had to take a look from the side. then you caugth me with those sexy eyes. I to say some thing to you. all night, I won't show you around my town. give me your number so we can talk. she said why so we can get little more person. I talk her at 7:00 p.m. we talk all night. then I…
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It seem like every thing is change when some one walk in the room. you pass me, by I had to take a look from the side. then you caugth me with those sexy eyes. I to say some thing to you. all night, I won't show you around my town. give me your number so we can talk. she said why so we can get little more person. I talk her at 7:00 p.m. we talk all night. then I set a date for tomorrow at a place nice.then I pick her up and her brilliant color blind my eyes and I had to just stop then look at you again wondering how did I meet beautiful girl like you one who bring fun in to my life the I can trust to love me right she have a way of show love in a lot of place it seem like she passion about me because she just won't stop talking about me when she only a few hours from me can't do thing right. It the same way with me. I can't go with out her it no long a problem when she can't stop love me. it seem like the whole night that we talk about each other but the night had to end. I said bye and she got out the car, call you tomorrow bye
I agree and think that she is relating the poem to her childhood.It is siad that she always felt that her parents never wanted her. They also died of disease when she was young. I think that the poem relates to her relationship with her parents when she was young.
This is what the meaning of this poem is I believe A thousand doors ago-so like before she had opened a thousand doors, a long time ago- when i was a lonely kid- and only child- in a bighouse with four garages and it was summer as long as I rmember- so she was rich and it seemed like the perfect home from the ooutside- I lay on the lawn at night clovers wrinkling under me- she is outside at night- my mother's window…
Read the whole commentThis is what the meaning of this poem is I believe
A thousand doors ago-so like before she had opened a thousand doors, a long time ago-
when i was a lonely kid- and only child-
in a bighouse with four
garages and it was summer
as long as I rmember- so she was rich and it seemed like the perfect home from the ooutside-
I lay on the lawn at night
clovers wrinkling under me- she is outside at night-
my mother's window a funnel
of yellow heat running out- so in the dark when there is a light on, you can see the rays coming out of the window, and im guessing it means that hers and her mothers relationship was a storng one-
my fathers window, half shut
an eye where sleepers pass- so he's already alsleep, and im guessing her parents dont sleep in the same room, he father stays a mistery to her-
and the boards of the house
were smooth and white as wax- just the moon light on the house peaceful-
and probabley a million leaves
sailed by on their starange stalks- uhm this is one i never understood much, but i think its talking about her friends-
as the crickets ticked together- so peaceful night-
and I in my brand new body,
which was not yet a womens- so she young like 12 or 13-
told my questions to the stars- so i guess she is like praying :S-
and thought god could really see
the heat and painted light- so i guess believeing that even god could see though her family perfect family portrate-
elbows, knees, dreams, goodnight- so im guessing falling asleep-
well i had a lot of trouble with that poem and if i got it wrong polease correct me, but i know that if there had have been an explanation like this ofr the poem, i would have kissed the persons feet, so your welcome and please correct what ever i missunderstood
This poem is a wonderful piece of reflective art that has universal appeal. How can those of us who had a less than perfect childhood, fail to empathise with this poem. In the poem Sexton shows how her trust, reliance and support in those days could only be within nature. She turns to nature in this poem in the way that she should have been able to turn to her parents. It is very well-written with an indirect theme : childhood/adolescent instability.
Lines- explanation 1. many years ago 2. her parents had died, she was lonely 3-4. the girl was wealthy but lonely without her parents to love her 5-7. she had always laid outside at night watching the sky on top of the ground and grass 8. stars all around her 9-10. the lack of light in her mothers room tells that her mother’s death caused their strong relationship to become weak 11. the window to the bedroom was…
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1. many years ago
2. her parents had died, she was lonely
3-4. the girl was wealthy but lonely without her parents to love her
5-7. she had always laid outside at night watching the sky on top of the ground and grass
8. stars all around her
9-10. the lack of light in her mothers room tells that her mother’s death caused their strong relationship to become weak
11. the window to the bedroom was half shut resembling an eye
12. nobody slept in the bedroom after her parents had passed
13-14. the boards of the house were bright white
15-16. the leaves on the trees swayed representing calmness
17. the crickets chirping together was the only sound in the night
18-19. she is maturing and growing up by herself without anyone to raise her
20. she laid beneath the stars and prayed
21-22. she thought God was taking care of her parents in Heaven
21&23. she thought God was watching out for her and listening to her prayers before she went to bed
with all of my research i believe that to be correct but there is always room for opinion
that its about her first time masterbateing
I think this poem was written when the girl was grown up, she is remembering her summer.At this time the girl is not quite a woman but is no longer a child. She is rich and probably the only child b/c she said a lonely kid in a big house. The light coming out of her mother's window symbolizes a warm relationship, however the half shut window symbolizes a mystery that her father is to her. And "an eye where sleeper pass" that her father keeps to himself. Thoough she has a warm relationship with her mother, she does not trust her b/c her question and thought are expressed to the stars.
Hope this is right b/c i have to interpret it next class.
I think this npoem was written about a girl whe she is all grown up an she is at her parents house remembering all when she was a little girl when she layed in her lawn watching the stars and whatching in her parents window
I think that this poem was written by a women that was thinking back to when she was young...and she wrote about her thoughts while she lay on the ground...
I liked this one it gave me a sense of safety and it put an image of God and the starsin my head. It was great.
The poem has to do with her becoming a young women and finding her sensuality- i think..........
I liked the it alot,I think it was about her growing up and what the day was like and how she didn't feel like a woman yet but she was almost there and about her summer growing up
Ga BEST beset poem ever
The speaker was a girl, probably in her mid-teenage years in this poem, and she is now recalling her summers as a little girl. She has not fully reached the stage of womanhood yet, but she has come to the realization that she is no longer a child. She is apparently very wealthy and probably the only child because she said she was “a lonely kid in a big house.” The light coming out of her mother's window represents…
Read the whole commentThe speaker was a girl, probably in her mid-teenage years in this poem, and she is now recalling her summers as a little girl. She has not fully reached the stage of womanhood yet, but she has come to the realization that she is no longer a child. She is apparently very wealthy and probably the only child because she said she was “a lonely kid in a big house.” The light coming out of her mother's window represents her having a warm relationship with her parents, however the half-shut window symbolizes the mystery that her father is in her eyes. And "an eye where sleeper pass" shows that while she does love her father he is a man that often prefers to keep to himself. Though she has a warm relationship with her mother, she does not trust her, which is seen when taking into consideration that her question and thought seem to be confessed only to the stars. The point that the speaker looks as though she is trying to get across is that even though we may feel completely alone at time as we face the many stages and struggles in our lives, we are never truly alone, because we will always have the stars and God to listen to us.
Young-All my pretty ones
She is still a child in this poem. She is purposfully obscuring the details of her relationship to her parents, but essentially realizing she is not quite an adult, but is past seeing her parents through rose-coloured glasses. That's why she tells her dreams goodnight.